| Yeah yeah yeah |
[Jun. 13th, 2006|01:25 pm] |
I kind of did not go on here in quite some time as I thought I would. Not because I was being distant, but actually because I completely forgot about it.
However, I definitely have been distant and disappeared for nearly a month, for some more/less. I apologize as I've had a lot of things going on recently.
School ended and I'm working. I quit my job so I'll stop going in a couple of weeks. I can't wait. I'll be tutoring again in July which makes me happy.
I also started going to the gym. I'm so glad I'm going to the gym. I actually feel incredible whenever I leave. I'd love to lose about 20 lbs., lol...which will be hard considering I'm just a big boned person, but I'd be happy losing 5-10lbs. quite honestly. I'm going to do it, too. I'm excited.
I miss all of you guys tremendously and it's not even funny.
Vi's coming to NY and we're going to see Beauty and The Beast. I'm taking her to dinner! YAY!!! *throws confetti*
So as for travel, it looks like this...
Weekend of June 24 = PA (Vi let me know if that's cool?)
Aug. 7-23 = CA and a road trip to OR with another friend. I'd be staying for a week, give or take a couple of days. I can't wait. Let me know if this works out for you kids.
I'm seeing NIN with Geordan this weekend and I'm uber excited. He and I haven't been able to hang out much as of recently. Then I think in August I might be going to Warped Tour.
The summer's been interesting so far. Way too much drama, lots of bad things, but eh...some good things, too. It happens. Life happens. Just have to kind of roll with it.
I love you guys and do plan on going on here more and hell posting on here more. MySpace is hard to do that with considering I have a couple of family members on there and one of Geordan's good friends who has actually mentioned to him a couple of things. Retahhd. And xanga...that lost it's appeal awhile ago. So yeah, I'll be posting on here more and am considering getting a blogspot or something for poetry? I don't know. I'm still not VERY comfortable showing my stuff.
How is everyone else lately?! It's good to be back. I love and miss you guys...can't wait to see you all! *hugs* *kisses* Much love kiddies. BYE! |
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| So I'm kinda hurt |
[Apr. 13th, 2006|12:55 pm] |
I'm kind of hurt because as some of you guys know, I'm really self-conscious about myself in the sense of weight. COnsidering I was teased as a little kid even up until high school...I'm really touchy about it. I know I know you guys love me for who I am, I shouldn't care but things hurt. It's worse when a friend doesn't really defend you. For instance:
So on myspace I have a pic of me in a cow costume that I wrote around campus.
Now Nate's friend George saw it, clung on to it, and jokingly (or so I thought) referred to me as the cow. However, I just saw on his page under his comments, after I left a picture comment, she wrote, "the cow loves it." Now ok..whatever, this shouldn't bother me...I get hit on a lot, I have guys who ask me out, but we all have our personal glitches.
Anyway, just for kicks I checked out her page to which he wrote something like, "It's not nice calling her the'cow.' You are officially evil." Wow...what a defense...I just want to tell him thanks for sticking up for me...especially since when I went to PA I asked him about it and told him I really didn't like it...I don't know, it bothers me. It shouldn't, but it does...especially since if any of my friends ever said that about him, I'd kill them. That goes for any of my friends actually.
I shouldn't care...but I do. |
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| Totally bizarre |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|10:37 pm] |
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So on Friday, 3/3...something so freakin' awesome happened to me I just had to share it with you all.
I went to Taste of Chaos tour. it was at the Continetal Arena in Jersey...the bands I saw were As I Lay Dying, Story of the Year, Greeley Estates, Receiving End of Sirens, Atreyu, The Smashup, Street Drum Corps., Thrice, and Deftones. I missed Funeral for a Friend and Adair (I think). The bands were fantastic and they all did so well.
The Smashup's guitarist looked like Nikki Six and I was saying to my friend that I couldn't believe he was playing!!! lol. He was wearing a red muscle shirt, dyed black hair (slightly longer), jeans...and had SLEEVE TATTOOS!!! OMG! *drools*
I went to buy something at the end of the concert...I bought a Deftones shirt and then went upstairs to try to go to a different merch. booth...until security stopped me and said there was "no more merchandising." BLATANT LIE!!!!
ANyway, my friend and I hung out on top trying to think of ways to pass by security when all of a sudden...the Niki Six character was just about to pass us. I for a sec couldn't reember what band he was from but approached him anyway. I said his band was awesome (they put on a hell of a show) and he asked my name...we talked for probably 8 minutes...and he shook my hand...took a pic..signed an album I bought off him, lol, and it was cool. he told me to email the band through myspace...so I did (I was going to do that anyway).
So...I emailed him, and that guy emailed me back..his name is Vin. Anyway...he also sent me his sn and phone number. WTF!!?!?!?! He said he couldn't wait to see me again and really looks forward to it. Anyway...I emailed him back with my number and sn but on Monday morning saw he was online and hadn't read the email so decided to IM him. We spoke frm 9:45am to about 2:55pm....he's sooooooooo nice.
*Sidenote: He definitely could have invited my frien dand me back to the van...know what I mean. He doesn't seem like the type of rock star guy to be like...(I said to my friend who quotes me on this now) oh let me take you back to my trailer and jam it up your butt. You know what I mean?
Anyway...I got home and at around 12 something he IMed me...we talked for about 20 minutes and then I IMed him yesterday morning and we spoke for a few minutes. He IMed me tonight, though. =) Le sigh.
The best part....the band is a NY band...and he lives in Maspeth...an area of Queens. he's about a 25 minute drive from me! How creepy is that?!?!?! It's like fate or something. His middle name is also my dad's middle name. Odd.
We'll see what happens.He told m enumerous times he really wants to see me when he comes home.
Imagine....if I dated a rock star?
PS: 5 HOURS?!?!?!?!?!??! DAMN! I haven't done that in years! |
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| Awkward moments |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|08:53 pm] |
You know...I don't like hurting people...whether by accident or intentionally...but this seems to happen.
Example:
Last night...went to visit Johnny since I hadn't seen him in a couple of months. I visited him and for the first time since I've ever even spoken with him...he looked/sounded completely cracked out. He said he was on cold meds. and had not been drinking or taking anything. I dunno...but he looked creepy...and was acting weird....I mean really weird.
He told me he missed me over and over again. *sigh* He then asked me out...something I did not expect for him to do. I said I couldn't to which he got upset (didn't cry) but was really sad. After about 15 seconds of me looking down and silence...he asked, "Daylin...will you marry me?" To which I kind of half-heartedly laughed and was like..."not now...no." (STUPID STUPID STUPID) Then he said..."THAT MEANS IT'S A MAYBE!!!! WOOHOO!!!!" So i said...I don't know but for now...no. After a couple of minutes...he knelt down on the floor...and whil eon his knees came over to my legs...grabbed my left leg and started kissing my knee and foot begging me OVER and OVER and OVER again to date him...asking me why I wouldn't?
Geez....it was so sad and pathetic.
Then today...I found out through a friend (and semantics =P) that he actually told my friend that he plans on marrying me one day.
Umm....no?
Anyway...just wanted to let that enter the air. How insane is this business? Man oh man.
By the way...chocolate covered licorice is DELICIOUS! AHHHH!!!
I need a shower...I'm dirty. |
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| Three things |
[Feb. 26th, 2006|09:10 pm] |
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I haven't written on here in 20 weeks, according to LJ...so I'm going to update on 3 things.
1. I'm only updating because Vi "nudged" me...lol. I haven't updated my xanga either...although I have updated myspace decently. Those are funnier entries, though...mostly rants to release stress. But, I'm doing this as a nudge. Sorry for not keeping up with everyone's reading...also.
2. This fuckin' pissed me off....this was a bulletin someone actually posted...on a very publicized site that is myspace:
Ten Reasons Why Gay Marriage Should Be Illegal
1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
I'm sorry...what a fucktard asshole that piece os shit is. If only he knew his brother did porno for a strnger and the guy who took them "cut" his picture out of the pictures...I wonder what he'd think about that.
3. After tonight, I have successfully gone back to my old self in the sense of relationships. I thought I was but then with this latest boy....I turned into a high schooler freakin' and buggin' over everything...and it finally struck me today when he called to cancel our plans because he was super hungover and didn't want to puke on me...that I'm not givin' myself out. Fuck that. I need to get laid really badly, or some sort of affection like a damn hug would be nice, too...but essentially, I'm happily single and happy to be back on the market in the flesh. I have a feeling that this guy and I are going to eventually end up dating...but it'll be under my terms, not his. I'm happy with that, especially since he needs to get his life on track.
PS: Vi, I'm going to PA the weekend of late March you said, the 24-26. I'm looking into it and already wrote it down and told my parents. I'm there. Yay!!!!!
Hope everyone is doing well. I'll try to update this more now that I'm back...I've just been ridiculously busy. Sorry guys.
LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! Be good and stay sexy kids.
BYE! |
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| Writer's Block |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|01:38 am] |
Ugh, I wish he hadn't IMed me. I fuckin' wish he hadn't gone and done that. I wish I didn't feel like this just isn't over, like there's more. I wish I didn't feel like I'm being so naive. I wish I could just stop thinking, that silence would just overcome like the splicing sound movie theatres make when a piece of the movie lacks any sound. I wish my mind would just make that sound and that I could just watch. I wish I could get myself to call other people or at least answer the phone. I wish I didn't miss him. I wish he would have fessed up to having a gf rather than hiding it when he pretty much can figure out that I KNOW about it. I wish he would stop with this whole "secretive not telling me information" thing he's doing. I wish I could have hugged him before he went away. I wish I didn't worry about him everyday. I wish I wasn't happy for him in my anger.
I apologize to everyone for not necessarily keeping up with the reading of the blogs. I just keep forgetting and then it's too late and it's not like xanga where I get emailed the updates. That's so much simpler and easier. Ugh, how annoying that livejournal doesn't work like that. BLAHKFLDSJFJSL!!!
I slept over at Stephen's house with Steve the other week. *sigh* I don't know what I'm doing. No, nothing bad happened, we pretty much actually just slept...and talked, and laughed so much I came home with my jaw not being able to open all the way from the pain. It was a good night, He said he watched me sleep. Heh, he's one of several who has told me I look so cute when I sleep. He said he smiled. He tells me I always make him smile. I wish he wasn't waiting for me. I honestly wish he would take his friend's advice and just say, "Fuck her!"
Tomorrow is Rosh Hoshannah. Oh boy...that's gonna be a party. Ugh. I wish I could help my mom. I really wish she'd let me just fuckin' put up a fight for her. I'm so sad that she's so upset and I can't do any damn thing to help. I can't stand that this is the first thing I've really been able to write as opposed to a poem. I can't stand the fact that about a week and a half ago, I watched The Hours, absolutely hysterical. I would love it if that were on again. I'm sitting hear with tears in my eyes...on the verge of a break, restraining myself for no reason.
I'm going to die young. |
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| HAHAHAHA!!! |
[Sep. 18th, 2005|09:04 pm] |
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Take the quiz: "What should your nick name be?"
dylan
your smart but u surround yourself with people that dont share your IQ but you luv them anyway
This is hilarious because people actually call me Dylan from time to time. What a coincidence. Love it! |
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| Schedule |
[Sep. 9th, 2005|07:11 pm] |
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| | Lewis Black | ] |
So here's the layout SO FAR of my schedule for this semester:
Monday:
9-10:30 = work
10:50-12:05 = poetry workshop
12:15-1:15 = work
1:40-4:30 = News Editing and Reporting and Making up stories II
4:30- = radio
Tuesday:
8-9 = work
9:15-12:05 = News Editing
1:20-4:20 = work
4:30-6:15 = radio
6:30-7:45 = Irish writers
*8:00-11 = visiting Geordan at work/library
Wednesday:
9-10:30 = work
10:50-12:05 = poetry workshop
12:15-1:15 = free hour (newspaper/radio)
1:40-4:30 = Literature of the Bible
4:30-6:30(+) = radio/movie screenings
*(+) = library
Thursday:
9-1:30 = work
1:40-4:20- Acting I
4:30-6:15 = hw/radio/work
6:30-7:45 = Irish writers
*(+) = visiting Geordan/library/out
Friday:
9-2 = work
I was going to join GLASA but when I heard that they didn't let this girl be president because of the sole fact that she WAS NOT gay...I decided not to. I will still do the Day of Silence and am always aware and all but that's just so shallow....if you're gay/lesbian/bi/straight fighting for equal rights, you shouldn't be one to judge. What the hell kind of hypocritical organization is that!?
Woohoooooooooo, busy!!!!
I already have a project due for Monday along with my book discussion group on Wednesday and you know what sucks...as I'm typing this I realized...I was supposed to go to the screening of Corpse Bride in the city on Wednesday but oh, my book discussion group takes place during that time....which is the priority you ask!? The book discussion group...le sigh. Eh, whatever, at least I love that book discussion group so whateverrrrr.
School's been going ok so far I guess. I'm going to PA next weekend =) I'll be getting there Thursday night and leaving Sunday. Woohoo! I can't wait! I get to see Vi, and some other friends. I am extremely excited.
Anyway, I gotta go. Going out to see Leah for a bit, then to B&N to get my book, thennnnn off to see Steve...yes, the ex, lol. Guy drama galore but whatever. Been bloated and stressed the past few weeks...I think the stress has caused me being bloated, lol. No, it's not pms. Whatever, it's annoying. Anyway, I better jet. Later all. BYE! |
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| 100 Calorie Packs |
[Aug. 23rd, 2005|12:00 pm] |
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Whew, just had one of those Oreo 100 Calorie Packs...I now feel slightly better.
By the way, I may get a job working at that cafe =) The Witch's Brew. WOOHOO!!!!! I hope I do I hope I do I HOPE I DO!
Going to Gigantour today with Johnny. That should be fun. We got t-shirts =) 9 metal bands + goal of losing our voices completely + Jones Beach + expensive & yummy venue food = interesting time.
I want to go to sleep and die...just for a year or so. That would be nice. Then I could wake up and feel rejuvenated and not have to worry about a damn thing.
I'll be visiting PA soon. Yippee skippee!!!
Did I tell you guys I may go to Cancun for Spring Break?! Probably not beucase some of the kids I'm supposed to go with have off at a different time but we'll see. Es posible!
I now have 14 plastic bracelets, hahahah. They're fun.
By the way...I am feisty and feiry and spunky...if you spank or tap my ass at the club, I will hit you. I wasn't kidding...I really did hit two guys...on their arms but still. I didn't feel like getting thrown out of the club, lol.
I feel very menopausal these days, lol.
I miss you guys. Le sigh.
Classes start on MOnday and I'm taking 6 including a poetry workshop (HOORAY!!! *throws confetti*), literature of the bible, a journalism class, acting class, play and performing and then I think Irish Writers. Should be hella interesting term.
I need to make an UBER amount of phone calls...hahahahaahahahahaha...*dies* |
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| Question |
[Aug. 23rd, 2005|11:42 am] |
This is a two part entry...
A. Not only am I over this butttttttttttt loathing is starting to occur. We all know how I get and that's really not good, and at this point...I don't care. Is that bad!? Good! WHO THE HELL GIVES YOU AN ATTITUDE WHEN YOU WISH THEM HAPPY BIRTHDAY!?!?!?!?!?! Oh right...because it wasn't at the EXACT time they were born!? SCREW YOU!!!!!! Little shit!
B. Here's a question I need some advice on....
So I met this ravishing guy who happens to be an alcoholic like they all have been,lol. Besides his drinking which ensues ALL THE TIME, he is quite the catch. To shorten what has occurred, I hung out with him last week, we watched a movie, Bruce ALmighty (recommended), and hung out for about 5 hours at his house. To cut this short because we know I have a tendency to ramble, some of the things he said to me included that my curls were sexy, I had this cute laugh/smile, I am amazing, lol, constantly kept talking about people that I would meet and how he wished I could hang out later and how I have to hang out again, blah blah...when we were talking abotu meeting up he said I was gonna get the BIGGEST hug...I didn't but then while watching the movie something happened and he waslike, you know, I didn't even get a hug so I said well, you didn't get up for one but you can have one. SO he said ok, I'd like one...and he didn't move so I asked, well I'mnot just going to go in for one and so we both hugged, how dorky, hahaha, and it was nice. I asked if he felt better and he said yes. He also gave me a plastic bracelet. That was last Thursday. Then I saw him SUnday night, went to a bar with him and his friend...supposed to meet up with other friend but they ended up not coming through. ANyway, he talked to the other girl and I here and there but whatever...oh right, that night he also commented on my booty saying it was nice, lol. Here's the problem, he doesn't want any sort of serious relationship. However, he isn't the type for one-nighters either. He just doesn't want to hurt anyoen or get hurt right now...I know blah blah blah, typical guy speech but I really don't think he's actually gotten any except maybe a few kisses here and there.He's a really great guy and very chill and just cool. So anyway, here's my question...on one of my pics on my other page, he left a comment about his friend and said, "John G thinks you're easy on the eyes, he wants to meet you." *glares* WTF IS THAT?!?!?! What am I supposed to do with that?!?!?! What do I make of this?! I need advice! Sooooo, I'm seeing him THursday, I plan on manipulating this and saying something along the lines of....I se how it is, just throw me aside *sniff sniff*...of course it woud be better than that sinc we joke about being best friends and stuff. Weknow I'm word savvy with drama but still. I need advice! HELP! PLEASE! Some advice I've gotten so far is to not get too hung up (which I'm attempting to do) but if I really like him, stay with it because they've agreed they know I can change his mind in time...which is fine with respect to time since I don't want a relationship just yet myself. But, is this doable?! You'd think he was attracted to me with the things he said right?! He didn't even try anything so...*sigh* What do you guys think?!?!
The End.
PS Did I mention that besides this guy drama, I have the best girlfriend ever and that I miss her. I heart Vi =) |
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